30 Before 30

Today was one of one of "those" days. You know, the type that occurs when you're on the fence as you wake up about whether or not the day to follow will be a good one or a not so good one. One of those days where the smallest of things makes you mumble under your breath and want to pull your hair out. And there's no reason as to why you really feel this way, you just do. 

But now, it's 5:53 pm and I've decided to turn this day into a new beginning. You see, I started this blog years ago, made about four blog posts and then put it in the pile of things that was supposed to become a regular in my everyday life but became quickly forgotten. So today, I turn that around. 

Back in July, two months after I turned 28, I wrote a "30 Before 30" list. Partially because I needed to do something for myself, to put my wants in one space and set out to achieve them. What better than a "30 Before 30 list." It too got stashed away and left to be forgotten. I'd come across it now and again, look through it, close the notebook it was written in and move on with my day. But today, today I'm putting this list out there, out for the world to read, out there for accountability. The first thing on the list? To start writing again, for me. To explore the possibilities of starting a blog and getting my thoughts out there in hopes that it would help me find an outlet on days like today, to find my way back to something I am very passionate about and maybe, just maybe, help some other people through days like today too. 

So here it goes, here goes the "restart" of my blog. Here goes publishing my "30 before 30" list for everyone to see and for me to accomplish. Let's do this!!

30 Before 30

1. Start writing again, for me. To explore the possibilities of starting a blog and getting my thoughts out in hopes that it can help me find an outlet on days like today, to find my way back to something I am very passionate about and maybe, just maybe, help some other people through days like today.

2. Get healthy. Eat better. Lose 15-25 pounds. (I am 8 pounds down from when I originally made this list). Be more active (I've been going to the gym for a solid 3 weeks now). 

3. Be a better me. For myself, for Jacob, for our kids.

4. Take more pictures of us. Of our children. Of nature. Find beauty behind the lens.

5. Get another tattoo. An anchor? The kid's names? Both?

6. Partake in a paintball fight.

7. Find adventure. Try new things. Say yes more often.

8. Go on a random road trip with friends.

9. Travel to a new city or state.

10. Play messy twister.

11. Become a "regular" somewhere. 

12. Learn to cook. I've screwed up hamburger helper for Pete's sake!

13. Start a new family tradition.

14. Know that it's okay to say how I feel. Holding it in doesn't provoke change.

15. Rekindle the romance and friendship with my husband. Times get tough. Sometimes giving up seems like the easiest thing to do but 11 years is too far to come to just walk away. 

16. Go to a Chase Rice concert. 

17. Worry less. It's okay to go a day without makeup or the perfect hair. And lazy Sundays are and should be a thing.

18. Finally watch the Lord of the Rings & Hobbit trilogies.

19. Find the prettiest waterfall in the state of Kansas.

20. Experience a drive in theater. 

21. Re-read the Harry Potter series & have a weekend marathon.

22. Continue to make more time for family.

23. Lear to let go. Of hurt and of anger.

24. Make time for myself. 

25. Home improvement projects. Kitchen (done), wall decor, office area.

26. Explore the opportunities within an online course or certification. 

27. Find the best cheeseburger in the state of Kansas.

28. Read more. 

29. Go to a musical.

30. Never back down. Go after my dreams.